all our lives, we put them out of sight and out of mind... [Wednesday November 21st, 2007 at 9:23pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | Surface, Deas Vail ] I've come to the sad realization that I only post when my life is exciting. So if you couldn't tell, life is pretty...stagnant right now. I'd like to get back into writing again. Not posting, I mean, but actual writing. But whenever I sit down and decide to do something, I come up blank. I have all these ideas, but I don't know how to phrase them. It's frustrating. 0 >> reply >> edit

just stay, just stay [Saturday November 3rd, 2007 at 4:17pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Afterparty, Kevin Devine ] well, things are finally looking up. 0 >> reply >> edit

you've got the spark i've been looking for... [Friday November 2nd, 2007 at 4:02pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | The Longer That I'm Out Here, Kevin Devine ] it's funny how things can change so much in such a short amount of time. 0 >> reply >> edit

the longer that i'm out here, the better you sound [Monday October 29th, 2007 at 10:06pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Afterparty, Kevin Devine ] i feel like everything has just been turned upside down. i want to hate it, but i can't. 0 >> reply >> edit

but we both know that i'm not that strong... [Monday October 29th, 2007 at 7:31pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Just Stay, Kevin Devine ] i've decided tghat i'm gonna try and post everyday again. even if it's just a sentence. so, my sentence for the day? ME AND BRIANNA ARE SO FRICKING AMAZING AND WE FINISHED OUR ENTIRE ENGLISH PROJECT IN ONE NIGHT AHHH. that's it. 0 >> reply >> edit

what are we but our stories? [Saturday October 27th, 2007 at 1:44pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Can't Finish What You Started, Motion City Soundtrack ] sometimes i feel like my life has become a cliche. i hate it. 0 >> reply >> edit

i am... [Wednesday September 19th, 2007 at 8:23pm] sad. full. indecisive. curious. guilty. loved. unsure. annoyed. aggravated. stressed. upset. nostalgic. busy. running out of time. afraid. restless. helpful. forgiving. worried. confused. having one of those days. 1 >> reply >> edit

whoa. [Wednesday August 22nd, 2007 at 7:12pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Giving It Away (acoustic); Mae ] I am so tired. really. I didn't realize how much work would tire me out. I work almost every other day, so when I'm not working, I sleep really late and then just go on the computer. -sigh- And I really really really need to do my pedligs. I keep saying, "oh, I'll do them when I wake up." But then I go on NSHC, and see a FFA or something. Or I'll see a really good stock photo on dA. And then I do something else. ugh. I feel so unproductive. I was so glad I got to hang out with Zach yesterday. Actually, I was really surprised my mom let me. But it was fun. We played Guitar Hero for a little (except it was more like me watching him because I suck. seriously. it's disgraceful). And afterwards we just hung out and watched Donnie Darko. It was good, but I had to leave before it was over. Well, I wasn't really paying attention anyway. hah. I really was happy to see him, we didn't hang out for over a week, and last time I saw him was at his family party, so we didn't really get much time alone anyway. When I woke up this morning, my back was KILLING me. And it wasn't better that I had to ride. I am so exhausted right now. But it's a good kind of tired. C: Everyone had a really good lesson. And it's about time, I haven't had a good one since our first lesson with Lisa. Like, the entire summer. ugh. Sweetie used to be so good. It was hard to get her to pick up her left canter, but it COULD be done. Now, it's like, impossible. All she does is run into it and then fall in. And Giddeon can ONLY pick up the left lead, so we couldn't really canter all together because either me or Elyse would just end up sitting in the middle. hah. But it really was a good lesson. I was talking to Jaime beforehand, and I decided that I would take charge of Sweetie this time, and let me tell you, I LAID THE SMACK DOWN. If she just started to fall in, I kicked her HARD with my inside. And if she still didn't listen, I'd smack her with the crop. Obviously, I'd only do this if she wasn't responding to my leg. Like, Lisa had a couple ground poles down, and when we were going to the right, she would ALWAYS fall in afterward. Each time, I kicked her and made her get on the rail again, and by the fourth time, she was perfectly straight. She didn't even try. I never realized how much I let her walk all over me. Anyway, overall, it was really good. I FINALLY got to canter her (as along as we were going to the right, hah). Jaime did good on Star, I'm really mad I can't see her at states on Saturday. Katrina rode BJ, and he looked so happy that somebody was actually riding him (well, someone that actually knows HOW to ride). Elyse was on Giddeon, and she really got him moving, he looked so nice. It was amazing for all of us, and we all had a lot of fun. It's so funny. Riding is like, so important to all of us. I don't know what I'd do without it. But it's kind of ironic, because something we love so much could SO easily put us in the worst mood. You really wouldn't understand unless you rode, but when you have a bad lesson (like me-Sweetie-can't-even-stay-on-the-rail-bad), it can ruin your entire week. You feel like crap, like you can't do anything. You almost feel like you can't ride. But you do. And when you do, you realize that it's something you just can't stop doing. I don't think any of us ever can. 0 >> reply >> edit

-sigh- [Friday August 17th, 2007 at 5:50pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Oh Star; paramore ] I'm in a weird mood today. I don't feel funny, witty. Come to think of it, I don't think I'm witty at all. I wish I was. I wish I could entertain people, really make them laugh. But I can't. Maybe they smile. Or chuckle. But I can't remember the last time someone really laughed at something I said. I don't like it. 0 >> reply >> edit

whoa [Saturday August 11th, 2007 at 9:06pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | When Did Your Heart Go Missin'; Rooney ] Haven't updated in so long. Been really busy. So, Michael's hired me! I'm starting Tuesday, I'm so excited! Had a family party today for my birthday/Jaime's graduation. It was nice, I printed out a bunch of photos of my baby cousins, everyone liked them. In other news, Jaime is running off to New York? She's going Upstate with our aunt/uncle/cousins until Wednesday. O.o I felt bad for my mom, she just randomly sprung it on her cause my Aunt Roe was like, "Oh, Jaime's coming home with us." -sigh- I'm not really in the posting mood. Basically, it's been the best summer of my life, I don't need to write about it. I'll remember it forever. :]<3 0 >> reply >> edit

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